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Well, i'm off to go contemplate this inevitable disaster.

wonder what more magazine will bring me tomorrow.

Choices.

It's like when you wait for ages for a bus,

and then two come along at once.

Classic.

If there is a God i have three words for you

I HATE YOU.

awh well.

LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL.

Inconsistent

I contradict myself alot here.

But i change my mind alot.

God.

Moodswings much?

Sad Times.

 I know it sounds stupid and needy

and there's probrably a legitimate reason.

so sorry in advance

But when i feel like this,

like i'm rock bottom and i'm empty

and i miss her so much.

Just one text could help me.

but you don't text back

and i sink lower.

It's probrably not your fault

but still...

Dear **************

you have a very nice back.

I miss you.

Sorry.

Love!

I do feel bad
But tough shizz
I want to be a rugby wag.

and i have so much love for Molly Downes right now!

Words

This is my wordcount for this blog. Basically the bigger the word the more it's used.

I seems i WANT alot.

Get yours here

Woop!

According to more magazing this will all be sorted by Tuesday.

yes please.

So,

Have i lost three of you now?

Number one: We've all lost you forever, and it hurts everyday, even if we are learning how to get by without you, it waill never be the same.

Number two: I'm sorry honey. I already miss being friends, but you lost your chance, and that's just the way it is.

Number three: Is it me? I don't understand.

Haha!

I feel like quite the 'Sarcastic Bitch' today.

Actually

I'm so sick of people trying to find out.

Don't they just get the picture that i don't want to talk to them about it?

It worries me enough that the few people that know do,

i never really even wanted them to know.

so stop asking me and go get a life okay?

This is really bad but...

the fact that you're mad at me makes me want you so much right now. >_>

PHONE!

Here goes.

I miss you

If i could change one thing,

I would choose you.

If i could switch places with anyone at any time,

I would choose you.

If I could be with anyone right now,

I would choose you.

Eleanor, I would give anything to have you back.

I would give anything to turn back the clock

And just tell you to be careful.

Two words

That could have saved your life.

If only we knew.

Let's talk

I really want this to happen

Deary me.

I'm a selfish drunk.

Fire

wheni think about them burning you the panic rises up and i think it might swallow me.

i don't want them to burn you, beautiful.

sorry

i can't say anything. i just can't
i'm sorry
i can't

stop talking.

it is hard to pretend things didn't happen if you insist on reminding me that you exist.

Zero

"Why does it always rain at funerals?


It’s almost as if the sky is crying with us"
 
I wrote that a while ago, it's wierd reading it
because it's raining now.

S'laters

I won't say goodbye

just see you later,

because i will see you again

someday.

Well,

messed up just a little bit.

Memo

ripped from our arms

and our souls

and our hearts

we're hollow.

Tangled

tangled tangled tangled

in a massive web

of emotions.

love,

loss,

love and loss,

and grief,

and guilt,

and elation.

I'm tangled too far.

I can't get out without my knife

to cut away these ties.

I can't get away.

I don't know what to do

at a time like this.

It's too much.

You are

quite dashing indeed.

Where are you?

Your first chord is E.

I asked you if it was ok and the radiator gurgled.

I think that's a yes.

Sometimes i feel you so strongly it scares me,

and yet it's comforting too.

I talk to you all the time honey

because i need more memories with you.

I don't have nearly enough.

I miss you Eleanor,

i miss you

i miss you

i miss you so much.

nothing's ever going to be the same.

Superglue

Eleanor Austin (right)

27/12/1993- 09/11/2009

The life may have been taken from your body but your soul will live on in the hearts of all those you've blessed with that beautiful smile.

You will never be forgotten.

If only

Every wish is for you.

This should bring everyone closer. We should learn to stop messing around with each other and appreciate what we have. We should learn to say sorry.

I'm going to.

You'll be okay.

When I heard all I could think of was how you were so scary in lacrosse and everybody wanted you on their team because you could beat the shit out of anyone who wasn't.

You're a fighter.

You're going to pull through.

Sometimes it takes somthing like this to make you realise just how much you love someone. I think about these things happening alot but it never occured to me that it could actually happen to US.

You're going to be okay.

Please, God, let her be okay.

Lost it.

I get scared and change the subject.

I don't mean to.

Sorry.

Thankyou guys!

It worked.

Here's the deal

Get out of my head

or Kieran will shank you

and Rath will eat your soul

and Ike will force feed you ciggaretes until you die of lung cancer.

Inside LOL

You had me worried for a second there honey.

Oh.

so you guys actually read this?

GO AWAY.

I think saturday fucked with my emotions a bit.

I constantly feel like i'm going to burst into tears.

I have so many questions but i don't really want to bring it up.

I think my mind has blown it out of proportion way more than everybody would have if they knew.

Why have i been affected like this?

You know somthing's up when you start looking forward to spanish.

Bram

Smitten Kittens

Aftermath

Somehow I thought there would be more.

Flashback

'I feel like i'm taking advantage of you'

Look what you've done now.

I don't really know what to think.
I lost my shoelace.
I had fun though, really.